Monday, January 19, 2009

The person I want to be

What has happened to me ? Why am I behaving differently? Why am I thinking differently? I am no longer the person who I used to be...

As time passes by, people change...but this is not how I want to be.
Once understanding, now unreasonable. From composed to impulsive...And it just doesn't end here.
I do not like this change.

I do not know how it happened. I do not know when it happened.
But I know that I want to change..again..for better.

I want to be the person I would like to describe myself as.

I want to be...the person I want to be.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Theres so much to do...

No this is not a complain by an extremly busy person. This is something I realised in one of my most idle moments.

Sometime back I found myself doing nothing. Literally. Initally I felt pretty relaxed..then followed the period of being lazy and finally boredom set in. I began complaining a lot. I was just sitting at home doing absolutely nothing. Friends were all busy with their own lives..and I dont like to go out alone.

Time passed at snails' pace. Facebook, Orkut and Gtalk actually reflected my state of having all the time in the world. But there was no end to boredom.

Then one day as I sat alone lost in my own thoughts I realised what a waste I was ! I didn't want it to be that way. I had to deal with this situation. I didn't want to sit and just complain how boring life is. I wanted to do something about it. I didn't want to waste this time..I knew I'll never get it back..and I wanted to live these moments instead of wasting them.

Friends suggested..learn salsa..learn swimming...do this ..do that... But I wasnt convinced. I didn't want to shell out a lot.

I took a pen and paper and wrote down all that I could do, all that had to be done but I didn't, all that I wished to do. By the time I finished writing I had a page full. It wasn't the case that I had nothing to do...I knew the cause ...I was too lazy, there were so many mundane things and I kept overlooking them, there were somethings I did not want to do just out of dislike.

I have begun working on my "to do list".

For all those who find themselves in a similar situation..and for those who have spare time..I have a few suggestions (you can have your own list though..)

- Read a book ..Read blogs..Read any thing of your interest (theres plenty of info on the net).

- Learn to cook..find simple receipes on the net and cook for your loved ones (chopping veggies ..kneading dough ..its such a stress buster! )

- Start cleaning...clean your cupboard..you'll find thing you are not using and wont use it in future..donate it!! (clothes..story books..anything that you don't need ..that can be used by someone else)

- Call up/mail a long lost friend...plan to meet up ( nostalgia..but its wonderful going back in time occasionally..and for all you know you might as well have a lil reunion)

- Make a list of what you wish to accomplish and how you will go about it (it can be anything..personal or professional goals..and when you feel most dejected read it..its really motivating)

- Recycle/ reuse..(search on the internet how you can recycle and reuse stuff available at home..you can challenge your creativity also).

- Life management!...get organized..chalk out a plan for yourself (it cud be about time management..resource management..personal development..anything...but stick to it!)

- You can also enroll yourself for any course, learn a sport, learn dancing, plan out a picnic for your family n friends, visit an elderly person, join an ngo.......

Pheeww ! Theres sooo much to do....